It hurts so bad
Right in my heart.
But I will smile for you.
Because you are happy.
Finally you are happy again.
Please read this before you chose to die
It happens sometimes when you least expect it. The feeling you get when your mind is shrouded in the fogs of your mind, you've suspended your life within the vines. You don't care whether you live or die - though you'd much rather die than live. It's what happens when you least expect it to, when you expect yourself to be a friend and not the very thing that sends you over the edge. You wonder what it would feel like to drain your blood and let the cold set in, what would happen if you closed your eyes, would you go to a world that was purely yours? Would you finally be happy, would you finally be able to not fake a smile? You know your parents would miss you, but you don't really care that much about it do you? You already took your life, what's done is done. Now go explore, go have some fun! Fly off the tallest mountain that only took you seconds to climb. Watch an endless sunset till the ends of time. This is what you've always wanted, this is what you've always dreamed, but you cou
Smosh and Me! Chapter 15Chapter 15: Anthony's P.O.V Happiness!
I kept glancing at the rear view mirror, and seeing Brandy cuddling on Ian's arm, she looked tired, but i didnt blame her. I also looked at Ian, who was blushing, his face nearly as red as an apple. I would laugh to myself and focus back on the road.
A few minutes later, when we pulled into the driveway of our house, and I heard Ian whisper to me, "Brandy fell asleep on my arm!" I looked back, and there she was, resting her head on Ian's left shoulder, sleeping peacefully. Ian looked at her and smiled happily. I poked him and he turned his head at me, "What?" he snapped. "Haha!" I started as I laughed, "Are you going to wake her up or what?" I then asked taking off my seat belt.
"She looks like she is resting comfortably though." He answered. I laughed and poked her left cheek, and with that she woke up with a shock. "I didnt do it I swear!" she yelled. Ian and I looked at each other and started to chuckle. She laughed when she knew what happened,
Smosh and Me! Chapter 18Chapter 18: An Awkward Situation
I sat watching television with Anthony laughing and smiling as he told me how many times Ian would fail on videos when they first started. "Ha! Really? He would get embarrassed when he'd mess up?" Anthony laughed, "Ha! Yep! It was hilarious!"
"Maybe for you?" Yawned Ian. I jumped up and ran over to him impulsively, he smiled at me and I blushed, that smile still made me blush. The way he smiled, his stubbly beard surrounding it, it made his teeth sparkle. "Are you feeling better?" I asked him, hoping the distress was gone. He nodded and kissed me, "Thanks to you and Anthony!"
Anthony got up and walked toward us, "Where's my kiss Ian?" he laughed. Ian shoved him softly as he and I laughed. I looked at the clock, "Man, it's only two o'clock!" I complained. They both laughed. Anthony ran over by the Xbox and pulled out three controllers. I jumped up and down with joy, "Yay! I love games!" I yelled with happiness.
We sat down and played all of their games,
Kiss Me BloodyKiss me bloody.
Kiss me raw.
Slap me around.
Kick my jaw.
Kiss me stupid.
Kiss me sweet.
Cut my chest open.
Red lines so neat.
Kiss me stoned.
Kiss me bruised.
With a baseball bat.
Or steel toed boots.
Kiss me deadly.
Kiss me silent.
Kiss me secret.
Kiss me violent.
Kiss me lovely.
Treat me right.
Slit my throat.
Kiss me goodnight.
Carry Me?Why don't you carry me?
I can't move on, I can't live on without you. You're my muse, you're my other half.
"I'm going to do it." She spoke to me from the internet, "I'm going to end it. I don't want to worry anymore. I don't want to worry about my future. I don't want to worry about living up to the expectations of those I love."
I stared at the screen in shock, wondering if she meant. Surly, she didn't? I whispered out my reply as I started typing it out, "No " I typed out, "You'd be hurting me...so fucking much...if you left. It sounds selfish...but you know what...I'm a selfish person when it comes to those I love. I love you too much to let you go. I will never leave you before you're ready. I promise. Oh God...just please...don't do this. It hurts even talking about this...I can't live without you. You're everything to me. You are strong. You WILL survive. We'll grow old and die together. Please, honey, don't do this."
I can hear the voices, begging you
SupernovaShe only ever wanted a real reason to scream, collecting her tears in jars and hiding them behind Poe and Hemingway; she secretly hoped for an ocean to call her own. She would name it after an aged bird spirit, pain manifested in many a Gods imagebelieving our vast universe formed by the callused hands of artists.
"They must have a sick, twisted sense of humor." she said, eyes on the moon.
And I asked her "Who?" curious, because I'd yet to figure her out.
"The Gods; they give dead stars the prettiest of names."
Please, Don'tPlease, don't
You don't realize
What will happen if you do
You speak to thousands
But you listen to no one else
Cut that wrist again
What pain you cause me
You scream for help
But you do not accept it
Don't make me
Build you your coffin
I don't want to paint you
With my misery tears
Don't do it
Life has so much more
To offer you
Just give it time
And times a bitch
But happiness will come
And trust me, it's worth the wait
Smosh and Me! Chapter 16Chapter 16: It Was All Great Until...
I opened my eyes and stared out in the sun-lit room, I immediately was shocked when two things came to my realization. I wasnt on the floor, I was sleeping on Ian's soft and comfortable bed, and that I had woken up in Ian's wonderful arms again. I blushed, "Gosh darn it Brandy!" I started to think to myself, "Stop blushing! He is your boyfriend now, plus you live with him!" I mentally face palmed myself, because I didnt want to disturb Ian.
I laid there contently, and sighed joyfully as I relived the past few days in my mind. I was in love! Ever since I had been hurt by my last boyfriend, I couldnt bare the thought of being hurt like that again, so I tried to stay away from it all. Even so, I had still found myself getting hurt. The thought of it made me shed a tear and shiver a little. I then heard a yawn behind me, "Good morning Ian." I whispered to him as I turned over. He smiled and pulled me into a tight hug, "I'm glad it wasnt a dream." he si
Smosh and Me! Chapter 14Chapter 14: Ian's P.O.V Feelings Soar!
As I splashed water into both Anthony and Brandy's faces, I couldnt help but laugh. Though, I nearly fell slipping on a rock under the water. "Haha!" Laughed Anthony. Brandy giggled, then went under water to see my foot and to move the rock. "Ha, well, your foots fine, and the rock will no longer cause you displeasure." She mocked in a funny sense as she threw the rock further down the water.
Brandy walked out of the lake, water sliding down her body. She grabbed a towel and turned toward us, "Anthony you brought some drinks right?" she asked. "Yea,in the trunk. Keys are under the towels." She smiled, grabbed the keys, and ran off to the car. I didnt take my eyes off her, but Anthony pushed water into my face. "Ha!" he laughed, "So, tell me what I walked in on." He winked.
I blushed at the thought of Brandy pulled up against me the way I had her, "I dont know what you mean." I spoke. He nudged me and smirked, "You know that's a lie!" he chuckled,
Smosh and Me! Chapter 13Chapter 13: Basically Speechless and Water Time
We were basically entranced in the television, watching Pokemon. I saw Ian shake his head and look at the time, "Oh god!" he yelled. Anthony and I looked at him in shock due to the sudden out-burst, "What?!" we yelled in unison. He jumped up from the couch and shouted, "It's only eleven o'clock in the morning!" "Time is moving so slow now!" I whined slumping back into the couch.
Anthony slumped back into the couch as well and sighed, "Well, we could go to a park or a lake or something." I smiled, I hadnt gone swimming in forever! I always got lost in my mind when I was in water, it was soothing. I jumped up next to Ian and happily cheered, "Let's go swimming!" Ian nodded, "Yea!" started Ian in his kid voice, "Can we go please Anthony?!" I laughed and looked at Anthony who chuckled, "Of course Ian!" Ian jumped up and down like a kid and ran to his room. Anthony got up and laughed, "I dont know what you see in him, but I'm sure it's a good
Smosh and Me! Chapter 12Chapter 12: A Great Date
I flipped another pancake, making sure it was good enough, it was a little burnt but it was okay. I heard Anthony and Ian whispering and laughing to each other, I just continued making the last pancake, and with one last flip it was done! "Pancakes are done!" I smiled.
Suddenly I stopped hearing the whispers and laughs, and two arms wrapped around me. I looked behind me to see Ian smiling and blushing a little. I blushed a little as well, "Anthony had a wonderful idea." Ian shyly implied. "Oh....oh what is it?" I asked still blushing. "Anthony told me that me and you should go out to eat breakfast, alone, and that he'll eat all of the pancakes." he announced. I had a shocked look on my face, "Yea, it sounds great!" I shouted!
Anthony jumped up from behind the wall and cheered, "Woo! I get all the pancakes!" Ian and I looked at him with a 'Wow' look on our faces. "Oh!" started Anthony, "Good for you two by the way! Haha" He chuckled.
Anthony ran over
Smosh and Me! Chapter 11Chapter 11: Ian's P.O.V- Another Good Morning
I forgot that I fell asleep outside with Brandy, we were still wearing the same clothes from yesterday. I didnt realize that me and her fell asleep under the stars together, or that she was resting her head on my chest, she looked peaceful in her sleep. I smiled at her and looked up at the sky, it was an orange-red color due to the sun-rise.
Brandy yawned, and lifted her head from my chest, "Oh, I'm sorry for falling asleep on you." She blushed. I smiled and told her, "It's ok, I didnt mind. I was admiring how peaceful you looked." She blushed again, but with a smile. Brandy put her head back down onto my chest, and she faced and stared at me. "Ian," She sighed contently, "this has been the best past few days. I came here expecting to have a fun time hanging out with you guys, but instead, I found someone to love and a best friend." She referring to me and Anthony.
I smiled, but then saddened, "That's right...." I started to think to myself
Smosh and Me! Chapter 7Chapter 7: I Knew It!
I opened my eyes to find myself laying on the couch, then, as I slowly moved, I realized there was an arm around me. It was not just anyone's arm though, it was Ian's! "Oh my gosh! Did we fall asleep together in each other's arms?!" I thought to myself.
"Oh, good morning." Ian yawned. I started to blush, "G...good morning." I managed to say. Ian chuckled and pulled me close to him. He hugged me tight and smiled.
"Woah!" Anthony yelled shockingly, "What happened between you two last night?" He mused. "I'll tell you later, ok?" replied Ian. Anthony smirked. I got up from the couch and yawned, "Good morning Anthony." "Good morning Brandy." He smirked.
After fully waking up and taking a shower, I walked out to find the two guys sitting on the couch talking. "I feel refreshed now" I exclaimed. Anthony smirked at me, I just smiled and looked at Ian, "Hey Ian, can I talk to you real quick?" I asked kind of blushing.
"Of course!" He shouted in his gay guy voice, I just gi
One last kiss before the Apocalypsethe day of the apocalypse
I will be near to thee
nestled in thy arms
the day of the apocalypse
my memories will parade in my head
my fear will disappear
the day of the apocalypse
I will put my ear onto thine heart in order to hear our love one last time
the day of the apocalypse
my lips are going to arise onto thine lips for one last kiss
I love you, I will love you, here or in another world
Smosh and Me! Chapter 6Chapter 6: Ian's P.O.V: A Long Night
I tossed and turned all night, I just couldnt sleep! All I can think about is what would've happened if Brandy and I did kiss... I mean what would we have said to each other? "Ian.." I heard Brandy's voice mumble. I turned over, and even in the dark, I could see her beautiful face. She was talking in her sleep, I wonder if she was dreaming about me. I face palmed myself, "Of course she is thinking about you! That's why she said your name!" I whispered to myself.
Since I couldnt sleep, I quietly got up from my bed and walked out of my room. I flopped on the couch, and flipped on the T.V. I couldnt even pay attention to what I was watching because my eyes keep closing. I finally fell asleep on the couch.
"Ian," I heard someone whisper, "Ian wake up." "It wasnt me!" I screamed. Brandy stood there staring at me in shock. "Oh, sorry." I yawned. I sat up and she sat next to me in her black pajamas. "When did you fall asleep out here? I thought you feel as